I’m still moving from Lithium to Geodon. I’m taking both now, and I’m on the lowest amount of Lithium I’ve been on in 30 years. One thing I didn’t expect was the return of vivid dreams. When I was a kid, I had vivid and even lucid dreams. What a shock to have them back. I had a brief period of dream recall when I used sensory deprivation pods. I did some “eugoogling” and found that people with bipolar disorder have more nightmares. One study said they can indicate an upcoming manic episode. I hope not. Mood wise, I feel more melancholy than mania. I’m taking the day off to rest, changing meds is draining and scary.

Laying in bed listening to “I’ll be seeing you”. I’m reading a book about Wicca. I’ve been leaning into Wicca since my manic phase in May. Maybe a remnant of magical thinking. It gives me something to focus on and learn about.