All May to now I’ve been struggling with the depression and anxiety after April hypomania. I’ve had several weeks of difficult projects at work. I miss Lithium, but I’m grateful for the over 30 years of stability it gave me.

When I read my last post, I had a great list of anti-mania items. Since the downward trend, going to bed early has been the main go to.

My husband has been a wonderful cheerleader. He sings to me, goes for walks with me, cuddles me. I feel like such a downer to him.

I think I’m starting to push out of my shell. I went out with a friend last week. I’m joining a women’s group on Zoom next week. I hope it will help to have other people to talk to than coworkers. My best friend moved back to the east coast. I hate her being in the “future.”I think it will help my husband have a break from my doldrums.

I took half a clonazepam, which just makes me a little numb. I may get more movement tomorrow, I think that will help, too.